ok well let me see where i could start on describing myself to you all.....ok i guess i can start with what bothers me.
i really hate that i cuss a lot. if i could change one thing about me it would be that...(trust me i've tried and it is really hard). i also do not like shallow and artificial and superficial people...(if that makes sense). I prefer people of some depth. I do not like close minded people..hey if i can do my best to be as open as possible all of you can as well...now that isnt hard. i mean what could be hard about atleast trying to understand and accept other ways of thinking? its not the difficulty level it is the stubborn and ignorant minds of certain people. i do not like when people judge people by their appearance. everyone does it and i must admit i do that sometimes. but i do try to be open and understand what they are thinking and where they are coming from. i try to look at all aspects of the situation. i dont like it when people disrespect people or things of beliefs that i like. it all goes together with that be open mindset. just try to respect and understand others...im not that difficult to please. i dont really like ignorant people. as mean or harsh as that may seem...i cant help it. when someone tries to talk about something to me and it is completely fucked and retarted and makes no sense...well i just cant take it...didnt anyone pay attention that 12 years of their life called school?
well enough of that...how about things i like and the way i am??
ok i love acting a fool with ash...it is truly a good way to express myself. and no i dont give a fuck what anyone thinks..why should i? i have all i need now..if you dont like me fuck off you dont have to. if i want to paint my nails black and wear guys shorts to school..you best let me be..or hell you can talk about me...i did it just to give you something to talk about?? well you can think of it that way but i really just did it to be me...and i will continue doing just that. music is a big part of my life. i feel that is a good way to express myself. it makes me feel that atleast someone understands me. although i know some others do.. Friends are a huge part of my life...ash, kris, jenn, and paul....yea i depend on them a lot (sorry guys) and they really help me through some shit. without them (as scary as it may seem) there probably wouldnt be a beckee scott anymore...thank you guys i love you all!!! i really like blue jeans and t shirts..preferably ones from thrift store..vans kick ass as well.....i dont really wear makeup anymore, b/c i feel i dont need that to make myself feel better...if im ugly im ugly i dont think makeup will change that..besides its the inside that counts (right thayer..everyone just wants the inside of the peanut and the potatoe..its true about everything) ...lol..as crazy and against me as that may be...i really love animals. such as black labs (well any dog), flamingoes, squirrels, cats, lions, tigers, heyenas, hippos, rhinos, gorrillas, girraffes, fish..the list continues....my dream job is to be a lawyer. i love the legal system and i could be a really bitchy prosecuter (my goal in life)..i play golf and i really love it..but id never want to be a pro golfer (oh god help me no!) maybe collegiant but never pro..the tour will have to do without me.. im not doing to well with the parents lately...'IM SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL'..oh no help us all im on the loose...but if you dont respect my privacy your fucking crazy if you think im gonna be all happy go lucky and still talk to you.. i dont need anyones shit in that area...words to me are beautiful. i love how artists and poets will work them together to make me really think about stuff. emily dickinson is awesome....i love taking bubble baths WITH ashlee and washing her back for herok this is getting long..ill add more later.....
